Phom Rak Khun Azierah..

Te valde amo (I love you so much) Nur Azierah..
How far it is...
How high it is..
How deep it is..
How much of it..
How truly it is..
Ego dilexi te, iam non moritur (My love for you will never die)

Je t'aime tellement (I love you so much) Nur Azierah
Since the day we meet..
All my scares are gone..
All my scars are wounded..
All my scales are over the top..
All my lust are yours..
My gaze stops at you..
Je vais être le vôtre mon amour( I will only be yours my love) ..

我爱你 (I love you) Nur Azierah...
For all the months we spent together..
For all the moments we went through together..
All the highs and lows that life throws at us..
All the happiness we smiles upon..
All the sorrow that we see each other through..
All the laughs..
All the sulks..
All the smirks..
All the pamper..
All of it..
所有的时间我与你共度每一天都是无价的 (All the time I spend with you every day is priceless)

Nur Azierah..
私は私の心の底からあなたを愛して (I love you from the bottom of my heart)
I always do..
Each of my heartbeat are with you..
All of the air that I breathe are with you..
All my eye blinks..
All the sweet my tongue feels..
All the skin feels that I felt..
All with never stop thinking about you..
私はあなたの体、あなたの心が欲しいとさえ自分のみ鉱山であることが (I want your body, your mind and you to be only mine)..

Nur Azierah..
Setiap saat tanpa suaramu.. tanpa pandanganmu.. tanpamu..
I feel no purpose of life..
I fees the need to just drive..
Just drive to you..
Just to see your eyes with the smile upon..
Just to taste your lips..
Just to feel your touch..
Just to feel you around me..
Just for the thoughts of seeing you..
Saya hilang tanpa awak...

I would always pray..
For us to be together..
Just the two of us..
And the offspring of you and me..
Together..
Forever..


Time: 1.07am
Listening to: Gym Class Heroes with Adam Levine - Stereo Hearts and your snore :p
Mood: smiling alone while looking at you

World of Our Own

One day I woke up into the darkness..

No light to shine my road..

Nobody to guide me..

Not a single sound was heard..

Not a single smell is present..

I choked in my breath and stand up..

I wandered around the world looking for a meaning of life..

And I came across a mirror..

Sitting aside with it's side to me..

It looked normal yet it looked different..

I walk slowly toward the mirror..

Stealing a small gaze I turn the mirror toward me..

What I see make me smile, yet make me surprised..

I see myself looking at a mirror..

But..

The dress is different..

The sex is different..

The voice is different..

The smile is better..

The eyes locks faster..

It is me..

But it's not me..

It looks like me..

It knows me..

But it's not me..

It is Azierah..

It is my significant other..

It is the other half of me..

The other half to my half..

I opened my palm toward the mirror..

Upon the first touch it cracks..

From the first touch it expands..

From the expansion we look at each other..

Reaching the last crack, the mirror shatters..

Closing palms to the face, we cover from the glass..

From a dream turn to reality..

We face each other..

Eyes locking together..

I reach to your hand..

I take your hand and pull..

Into the dark world that is in view..

With a smile you put up a light..

With my hand in yours you draw around..

The light was so shining I had to close my eyes..

Wave after wave of colors you draw the world..

The world of our own..

Something smells nice..

What is that sound? It is soothing..

What is the wind breeze? It's calming..

What was that? A calming voice calls out my name..

What is it Azierah? But I'm scared to open my eyes..
Are you sure? Alright I'll do it..
I slowly open my eyes..

Your smile greeted my eyes..

Slowly the adjustment shows around..

A world you created..

Just for the two of us..

Just for us to live in..

A world where we have no worry of anything..

A world where we can always be together..

A world where we are who we are..

A world of you and me..

The World of Our Own..

Time: 5.23pm

Song listened: Bougainvillea

Modd: Missing you so much right now..

Di Sebalik Mahligai..

Di sebalik mahligai yang dibina..
Sekian enam bulan tersusun bata-batanya..
Tiada disangka disebalik keteguhan tiang tiang yang dibina..
Terdapat kotoran di sebaliknya..

Akan tetapi tiada salahmu kotoran itu..
Tiada punca darimu..
Tiada persembunyian darimu..
Semuanya dari diriku..

Diriku yang menanam kotoran itu..
Tanpa pengetahuanmu..
Sekian enam bulan dirimu mengetahui kotoran itu..
Tapi dirimu mendiami..

Memberi ku peluang bicara..
Memberi ku peluang membuka..
Memberi ku peluang bersuara..
Memberi ku peluang tanpa lelah..

Sehinngga enam bulan dirimu mendiami..
Sehingga dirimu bersuara..
Menunjukkan semua kotoran yang ditanam..

Dengan setengah langkah dirimu memaling..
Aku menahan..
Aku menegah.
Aku menidakkan pemergianmu..

Aku memohon maaf..
Aku memohon keampunan darimu..
Aku memohon satu peluang terakhir darimu..
Aku memohon satu peluang untukku menghilangkan segala kotoran yang ada..
Aku memohon satu peluang untukku memulihkan mahligai yang dibina..

Akan ku hapuskan segala kotoran yang ada..
Akan ku buka mahligai yang kita bina..
Bata demi bata..
Akan ku pulihkan segalanya..
Akan ku cuci sehingga suci...

Akan ku hapuskan segala kotoran dari diriku..
Akan ku hapuskan segala najis mindaku..
Akan ku hapuskan busuk di hatiku..

Untuk mencapai mahligai yang kita rancang..
Untuk mencapai semua ceritera tersurat dan tersirat di setiap perbualan..
Untuk mencapai nafas terakhir kita bersama-sama..

Nur Azierah..
Dirimu darah yang mengalir di setiap sisip badan..
Dirimu jantung yang berdegup memberi nyawa padaku..
Pernafasanmu yang memberi udara padaku..
Matamu yang membantu aku melihat..
Suaramu memberi aku pendengaran..
Sentuhanmu yang membantu aku merasa..
Alunan rambutmu menyingkap setiap deriaku padamu..

Nur Azierah..
Aku mencintaimu hanya seorang..
Aku merinduimu hanya seorang..
Aku memerlukanmu hanya seorang..
Aku berghairah padamu hanya seorang..
Aku memikirkanmu hanya seorang..
Aku melihat padamu hanya seorang..
Aku bernafas hanya nafasmu seorang..

Nur Azierah..
Akan ku pastikan dirimu terlihat..
Hanya dirimu seorang untukku..
Hanya dirimu kekasih hatiku..
Hanya dirimu buah hatiku..
Hanya dirimu cinta matiku..
Hanya dirimu permaisuri hidupku...

Nur Azierah..
Ku pohon tiada henti kemaafan hatimu..
Ku pohon tiada henti agar dirimu memaafkan goblok insan ini..
Ku pohon tiada henti agar dirimu tiada melangkah pergi..
Ku pohon tiada henti agar tiada titik noktah buku ini..

Kerana dirimu begitu berharga..
Ini bukan iklan maybelline..
Ini kenyataan..

Akan ku cuci minda..
Akan ku cuci hati..
Akan ku cuci segalanya..
Mahu secara zahir dan batin..
Mahu secara hukuman dan pukulan..
Mahu setiap cara yang ada..
Agar terbukti padamu cinta tulus ikhlas hatiku..

Masa: 5.02 petang
Lagu didengari - Backstreet Boys - Shape Of My Heart
Mood - Bersalah

Half of each..

Today marks six months we have been together..

How time flies...

Six months...

Twenty-six weeks..

One hundred and eighty-three days..

Four thousand three hundred and eighty-three hours,,

Two hundred sixty-two thousand nine hundred and seventy four minutes..

Fifteen million five hundred fifty-two thousand seconds..

One may look like it is only six months..

One may say it is not a year..

One may say it is not ten years..

One may say it is not so long..

Nobody see this like us..

How we see each other..

How we see the slowness of time..

How we see the ups and downs everyday..

How we see life as it is..

The second you smile at me..

The second you look into my eyes..

The second you smirk..

The second you laugh at my goofs..

The second you close your eyes to sleep..

The second you patiently wait my loss..

The second when everything happen at once...

The whole six months feels like six weeks..

The whole six months took only twenty-six weeks..

The whole six months has six years of experience..

The whole six months has sixteen years of story..

The whole six months has sixty years of plannning..

We have been through a lot..

We have been throug the ups of life..

We have been through the downs of life..

We have been through the happy of life..

We have been through the sad of life..

No matter what happens, 

I will be right here beside you..

I will hold your hand..

I will walk with you on this road..

I will look at you..

I will smile with you..

And we shall walk to the end of life.together..

My love Nur Azierah..

Time: 11.50pm

Song listened: Marc Anthony - My Baby You

Mood: Appreciating you.

I am sorry...

Today was supposed to be the happiest day in our life..
Today was supposed to be the day we cheer upon..
Today was the day we have been hoping for..
Today was the day he accepted without fight..

You were just being concerned of my well being..
You were just asking about how I was feeling..
You were being how a relationship would be..

And I got my high note on you..
I talk impolitely toward you..

I should have not done that..
I should have not let it got the best of me..
I could have said it properly..
I should have controlled myself..

I am sorry my love..
I am sorry to have hurt you..
I am sorry to have made you scared of me..
I am sorry to have made you lost your excitement..
I am sorry to have turn the happiest day to the worst one..

Please forgive my stupidity..
Please forgive my impatience..
Please forgive my damned self..
Please stop doubting my sincerity..

I want to be with you.
I want to meet your family..
I want to talk about our engagement..
I want to talk about our wedding..
I want to talk about the day we have our own house..
I want to talk about the day we have a child together..
I want to talk about the day we let our child be married..
I want to talk about the day we have our own grandchildren..
I want all of that, together..

With you..

Please forgive me...

Time:  1.28AM

Listening to: Backstreet Boys

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